i am currently / reverse engineering / a sense of self / from your journal entries / i am hard to comprehend / i am elven / i am odd / i have long hair / i am somewhat hated / there is a beam of anger from your house to mine / i try to open my heart / the power lines tangle / i am trying to project a ray of love from my house to yours / but every time i reach out it’s to the younger you / i miss you when you were young / i miss you when your letters to me were poetic / i miss when you didn’t say “fuck” / often followed by “you” / i miss when you could bear to trace my name in pencil / when i could bear to trace yours in memory / or even just in fantasy / when i was naive enough to take your anger as a welcome mat / to take your anger as my own / to take your turning as another trick / to take you /

JUNE 12TH, 2021 / POETRY

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